Torn

How do you know which way to go
When you reach the fork in the road
Carrying all your worries and fears
Struggling with such a heavy load

Your brain says it knows what’s right
To chose the safest way
Your heart says that it knows the best
Choose the route that’s full of play

You stand there wondering what to do
Feeling so lost and confused
What if you make the wrong decision
And you end up being used

Then you think of just giving up
And you start to dig a hole
But you begin to feel an ache inside
Deep down in your soul

You know there’s someone out there
Who loves you with all his heart
But when you turn to go with him
You’ll be tearing someone else’s heart apart

No matter what you decide
There’s no real way to win
‘Cause someone you care about very much
Will be hurting in the end.

Strength for the Strong One

Standing apart from everyone else
Quiet and stoic, as she watched them cry
And mourn the passing of their loved one,
Who was so very important in their lives.
But it was now time, to say goodbye.

Her soulful dark eyes, welled up momentarily with tears…
Yet she said not a word…not a whimper..not a sigh..
Knowing full well her soul has always shown within her eyes
She quickly banished it behind a shield to protect her soft nature
From the corner of her eye, she noticed her mother and sisters weeping,
Coming up beside them, she placed her arms around them all…

As they wept, yet her cheeks remained dry,
She tightened her grip slightly,
To lend them her support and strength
Raising her chin defiantly at her own feelings…
Her jaw clenched in a great effort
To keep her emotions in check to great lengths.

Having accepted it long ago,
To take control of a bad situation in the family
Everyone, automatically turning to her
In their times of need.
Yet they don’t always see the vulnerability,
Hiding behind her golden brown eyes,
Too occupied with their own pain.

Having walked her mother and sisters to a comfortable sofa,
Making sure they would be alright, so they may repose for the moment,
She backed away slowly, to leave the silent room of memories…
As she walked, for what seemed like hours, she entered an empty room,
Closed the door, and slowly slid down its cold surface.
A surreal feeling overcame her senses.

After an eternity of sitting on the lonely, cold floor
Silent tears began running down her smooth young face
She hugged her knees to her chest, as she wept alone
Knowing the future will hold many such moments; as it has just begun.
For a woman who’s always had to be strong for everyone else, but…..
Who will be strong for the strong one?